what the fuck is happening to my life?
| Thoughts Became Words At 10:41 PM |
I WANT TO BREAK. FUCK. 2 WEEKS NEVER BREAK LIAO. BECOMING LIKE SHIT.
hahaha cocks. hmmm anw vdae coming liao... sianz... bankrupt time... hmmm ppl hu have no date want go out as a group? otherwise go home on vdae is total sad case la...
| Thoughts Became Words At 1:37 AM |
after viewing vids like expression 2005 second vid, i am damn inspired to lub combos and footwork la. but sian, not much time to break. now whenever i go down would b to try to b consistent, not learn new stuff. sianzz.
just now went supermarket with parents. bought some new year goods. lub a lot of beer. hahahaha. maybe on cny 65ians can come my house and stay after wadeva prgrm we have that dae. lub beer chips movies and talkcrap... hopefully can get my bro and parents out of the house, some way or another....
anw peeps the stj thing is over liao la, and i think yx wants to b welfare rep, so let him b k... and give him all your support.....hopefully jts and cny will b a much better experience for all :)
| Thoughts Became Words At 10:11 PM |
alas how we are so used to don masks everyday! masks of rule-confirming, for events that promise success and achievement; masks of happiness to sedate the worry and confusion and sadness and anger; masks of ignorance that harshly smother impulsive but true emotions; masks that are actually chains and shackles, that shroud our true selves, that make up this society of illusions and follies.
if you wipe the tears, make a smile, and say nothings wrong, im sure the sorrow inside you will be gone. will it?
---myself
i dun wan to b welfare rep anymore. pettiness? shirking of job? fuck.
| Thoughts Became Words At 11:28 PM |
quite long not blogssss...... anw jr quite zais. mad props to the on-ness. stj coming up on thurs at marina! ppl rmb to bring your most act lan clothes and cameras! tho its only a cock dinner plus photo taking, im quite excited abt it. dunno whys.
anw haven break for 2 weeks liao! WTF! too busy i guess. must lub breaking soon.
i think i have nearly gotten over the death of my ipod. but it will alwaes remain in my mind. R.I.P. but zen micro is not bad replacement of it. quite zais and smalls.
sigh have been eating too much sweets and chocs lately due to angel mortal. getting heaty. pimples appearing. shit.
after getting my fourskin innocence tee i think i now left one more t to get. but dunno wad to get. hmmm think left only one shirt on my wishlist. not bad at all.
sigh must start mug soon. try try try. otherwise die die die. sianzz. when i say hcjc life u say suck...
| Thoughts Became Words At 8:48 PM |
juz reach home at 7. yesterdae was quite zais. after a bad day with esther tan leaving us for this cock teacher, rest of the dae was nice. changed uniform finally, wore chinese high for a while, then wore timothys ri uniform for rest of the day. First went to see our facs items, but damn disappointing la. even last yr ours was better. but anw then me yj yx went btp to eat kfc, tok a lot cok there... then went popular cock around b4 gg back sch...when we got there 7 liddat liao...start liaos...but just as junior class was presenting the pro ambigram flag they say gg to rain and muz go hall. wtf. i shall nvr forget the Sian Diao cheer we didz. but then went hall after a while to c the rest of the performance. not bad la. then went back to central plza as no more rain, then intense singing begins. damn tiring la, the lame trains. hahahaa. but super fun and nostalgic. then mass dance, but i nvr dance, just watch everybody thruouts. then the 3 Gs of s65 went youth park to cock arnds. played double whacko (which i didnt play), and passing of the pokky stick. hahah i realli muz gay with bernard and jt. then when np and kh passing desmond extra extra push their heads together and made both their teeth chip off. hahaha. desmond is total cox. then everybody started gg off, oso buay on. in the end left celest kiet me yj ch hy ss lj meilin amelia chloe chengying jirong kennie zi han. then we played zhong ji mi ma plus truth or truth. hahaha. cock qns and cock ans. but celest and kiet left early after a while. then in the end duo luo until one by one give impressions of 03, 03 and 05 groups. then went cine watch movie. hy ss ch and lj went watch meet the fockers, the rest watched london voodoo. hahahahaa. london voodoo is cox. at first i tot shd b quite scary, in the end dozing off in the cinema. just a ripoff of exorcist. only some parts damn gory and er. then becos the two couples haven watch finish the rest of us went taka there to sit arounds. taught juniors cock stuff like black magic, xian zai ji dian and stuff liddat. quite fun. then some cock 20 plus ppl come tok to us. lames. then the gaoers came, the kovan ppl left after while, and the rest just sleep and wait for mrt service. so took one of the first trains, and thus reach ed home at 7. hahaha.
| Thoughts Became Words At 7:34 AM |
forgot to do this important thing.. so here i am doing this on 2nd jan...
well 2004 has been a extremely good year to live thru. i have had my share of relationship rollercoaster rides, endless fun and exteme exhaustion. i feel i have grown and learnt a lot after gg thru 2004.
for school life, i have experienced all types of ppl. back in tchs barely had such diversity. think this prepares me for a job life in a bigger society out there. as one pro quote goes, "school is a society. society is a school." i wont say i had a lot of stress, cos i played like a fuck. exam study on actual dae summore. but i must say quite fun. j1 is for u to have fun, tho cannot overshot. anw longer school hours was also a mixed exp. for me. more tiring, but more time spent with classmates. enable more interaction.
for breaking life. this year was mad dope, esp since it was my first year in breaking. (28 nov is my breaking anniversary). i have seen peeps improve like fuck (e.g. ftc, dominic, marcus) and others stay the same (etc. Bee). i think for myself i improve to satisfaction. compared to last year when i started i learn a lot. from trying to hold airbaby to doing teapot turtles, from being a poser by doing flips and turtles everytime i session to one who interacts with ppl at esp. from observing peeps like ftc and wowing at them to now training and joking with them. from despising most malays to even despising most malays. have seen crews form, fall out and reform again. have practiced from bedok to power building to orchard mrt back to esp. have kena chased away by security like dunno how many times.
i dun really like to make resolutions, but at least must make some.
must reduce greatly ponning rate. must do most work. must listen to most tutorials. must spend less time on breaking. but must put in double the effort in sessions. checkout videos only weekly.
well i guess like many ppl i dun really look forward to 2005. with such a bad omen as the tsunami disaster especially. got a levels, nightmarish terrible grotesque demonic monstrosity. haha cox. but i not really motivated to bia. cos i only want take philo and maybe some other cock sub in U. so only gp more important. dunno la. try my best la.
| Thoughts Became Words At 6:52 PM |
