Life is but a Train,
where the road seems to go on and ever on
we don't really know where we're heading
yet the train lugs on and ever on
Life is but a Train,
where the passengers come and go
some were already there when you boarded
some take their leave after you're seated
Life is but a Train,
where we find joy in companionship
yet though rails cross
it might still be lonely trip
Life is but a Train,
where the rails are never smooth
there might even come a day
when the train stops, never to move
Life is but a Train,
where you feel free to move about within
but in truest reality
your rails are set, as they always have been
Life is but a Train,
where you can choose to alight
end the journey, premature
only to plunge into eternal night
Life is but a Train,
where the road seems to go on and ever on
we don't really know where we're heading
yet still we must ride on
| Thoughts Became Words At 4:18 PM |
back! hahaha.... one single week in SISPEC BSLC Pasir Laba Camp seemed like fucking long la...
in short my section has been pretty fun so far... got 1 fucking extra guy, but besides dat its ok... maybe wont be as talk cock and fun as in BMT but not alr... summore got one guy who LIVES IN PASIR RIS AND IS A BBOY IN BFC... hahahahaa damn zai...
alpha is ok la, not slack and not xiong. but the day we did soc was super xiong la. first we go fucked by the PTI at parade sq, so kena pumped a lot. then ran all the way from Alpha Company (its at the end) to the SOC ground... more than the actual rundown of the SOC alr la... then after a few meagre mintues of rest then they told us to do all the obstacles in vest slack and no sbo TWO times... its ok... managable... tho i got blisters on both palms from Swing Trainer on 2nd run.... then they told us to wear helmet and sling rifle and do all obstacles again... damn shagged...hahaa.... then finish alr then immediately do yet another rundown in full SBO... totally er.... my palms were like lan diao alr...hahahaa... summore i go and put Qing Cao You .... fucking pain..
but other than that its ok so far, well maybe except the super long distance i have to travel. cookhouse food is significantly better than BMTC. today we had 2 big whole prawns la, super rare sia.
and yeaa can bk in and nk out in Civilian clothing alr....WOHOO.... tho cannot bring mp3 player, i shall survive on discman... woots...
shall chiong out to town alr... maybe blog more later..
| Thoughts Became Words At 5:46 PM |
yea battle of the year day one was ok... i predicted the 4 teams that would make it... but the crowd was super dead... the judges confirm all er dao by sg bboy scene...
sian la.... i want to be part of the comp.... train hard for the showcase, shed all the tears and earn all the bruises and waste all the time for the comp... take part... earn something... just now i sit there and look at everyone performing, giving support to each other, gathering together when the results were about to be announced, celebrating after it was announced.......i super want to be part of it la.... sian....
| Thoughts Became Words At 1:14 AM |
posted to
SISPEC(k). altho part of me was expecting OCS, but now im glad that i no need to go thru the super chiong sua training. but then im quite sian abt sispec cos its a training that grants you not much respect... you will still do sai gang after you get your rank... but then again im still ok with it... cos i didnt have much expectations so i am not let down in any way.. if i tio driver i oso nvm.. anw its time to buy some polo tees...hahaa...
my section got 3 ppl go ocs... but zhong dian is theres this zai guy who should have gone sispec but he go driver...wtf... the system screwed up la... kh going arti oso.... sians... but must congrats cy for gg OCS! shuaiz la...
yeah later gg to watch BOTY SG. woots.
| Thoughts Became Words At 10:51 AM |
finally i have writer's unblock--- or unblog, if you want. suddenly in the mood to type some damn as if act pro entries
we all know "ren zi cu xing ben shan", which means we are all born to be inherently good. but is that really the case? i dun think so... i believe upon birth the good and evil side of us exist in equilibrium, and that it is as easy to cultivate either side.
in one of his works, Plato theorized that we are all implanted with an inherent knowledge -- a knowledge that encompasses anything in the world. that is, we actually know everything regarding this world, just that we have not discovered them yet. Plato supported this with a story of how Socrates, just by asking a progressive set of questions, led an uneducated servant boy to discover a geometrical theorem that the boy cannot possibly have learnt before. For more details about this go google "Meno".
i believe this inherent-ness also applies to our evil side. In my view, there is no Satan, or at least, a supernatural deity thing that embodies evil. The real Satan is within us. theres this crime case where the criminal blamed his actions on Satan, as he felt a prescence in his room after he performed a black magic ritual. but i feel this prescence here is really his evil side awakening.
go listen to the tracks on The Umbersun by Elend :
http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0000088A0/qid=1150350687/sr=1-1/ref=sr_1_1/002-4392941-1034407?s=music&v=glance&n=5174and you will see what i mean. you will be like, omg, fucking evil and scary la, but imagine the composer is human like all of us. if one gets in touch with his or her darker side more often enough, it is not surprising one can come up with a similar composition. cos, again, i believe that we are all born withn the same equilibrium of good and evil within us. i dun think hitler was born evil, for that matter.
go
www.crimelibrary.com and under "Most Notorious", click "Mary Bell". she seems to be a female Damien, but after you read her family background its kind of understandable. subject princess diana or mother teresa to the same childhood environment and there will very likely be 2 more mary bells.
since nobody's life experiences are the same, thus this explains why for everyone there will be varying compositions of good and evil in them. we are all born with (if you mind the christian context) with God and Satan inside us. yeah, brings to mind those cartoons with the angel and devil arguing over the character's head. just that if u speak to God more often, you will become more Godlike (hahaha) and if you speak to Satan more often you will more evil.
and seriously, really do go listen to the Umbersun above. its a unique experience hahahaa but i dun think im gg to download it and listen to it while sitting on the bus
| Thoughts Became Words At 1:45 PM |
From a guitar god comes a damn nice power ballad.
"I'm My Own Enemy"
From now on I'm dancing with myself
To the sound of a blue and broken string
Left behind with the dust upon a shelf
The remains of a long forgotten song
All that we had but now again
I stand alone all love has an end
You cannot see this is my destiny
I'm my own enemy
In my life there was no-one like you
You cannot see this is my reality
I'm my own enemy
In my life there was no-one like you
From now on I'm sleeping with my shadow
In the night my thoughts can be my own
All the pain and all this endless sorrow
I miss you more than you will ever know
Holding you never again
It cannot be all love has an end
You cannot see this is my destiny
I'm my own enemy
In my life there was no-one like you
You cannot see this is my reality
I'm my own enemy
In my life there was no-one like you
Now I know there is no-one that is waiting
At the end of that long and winding road
Memories in the dead of night are calling
All the way I carry on my heavy load
All that we had but now again
I stand alone all love has an end
You cannot see this is my destiny
I'm my own enemy
In my life there was no-one like you
You cannot see this is my reality
I'm my own enemy
In my life there was no-one like you
| Thoughts Became Words At 2:18 PM |
TO ALL GUYS, SINGLE ATTACHED OR MARRIED:please drop by TCC at SMU prefably at night to check out this ultimate uber chio girl working there.... she is like a fusion of Da4 S and NYP Tammy and taking the result and increasing Chio Attribute by 47. too chio. seriously. summore its those guai guai type. you look at her wash the cups you feel like telling her to wash your cutlery for your next 40 years or so. seriously i want an Oreo Milkshake now but not because i crave for the milkshake but because i crave for the face that comes with the shake. ARRGHHH i shall go SMU to break everyday next week liao... chiong TCC....muahahahahahaaaaaa
anw just celebrated mums bday at Sakura Buffet @ downtown east.... yet another meal where i gorge myself to the limit... nearly every meal of mine since POP has been liddat... i just realized how nice the durian cream puffs are at Sakura.... made me skip the oysters....
| Thoughts Became Words At 3:10 PM |
this morning when i took bus to school i felt damn nostalgic again. started rmbing all the shits i did in jc. had the pang in my heart that one calls nostalgia.
seriously can anyone die of nostalgia? 18 years of life is quite a lot to rmb alr.... for me i still can recall myself lying in a cot trying to sit up cos i feel damn uncomfortable but cant cos have you ever seen a baby sit up..... still can rmb myself falling sick and my mum waking me up in the middle of the night for me to take my medicine and her playing tic tac toe with me before i go back to sleep.... still can rmb myself shitting in my pants and the shit falling to the floor then i see it and dunno its shit then go pick it up then ask my mum whats this..... still can rmb first day of primary school.....rmb buying a doraemon coin bank for my first crush...still can rmb gym training camp in tchs.... rmb kicking street soccer in sec4 classroom and hitting the fan and the ball getting a deep cut....still can rmb waking myself up at 4am during preparation period for Os to study but ending up playing Final Fantasy Tactics.... still can rmb first time going to Esplanade to break... still can rmb all the memorable sessions at Singapore Power Building and Orchard mrt station and bedok library.....still can rmb hc orientation-- all the dances, slippery slope, songs, zhong1 ji2 mi4 ma3.... still can rmb 2004 stj and jts, cny outing at yuhang's house, telling ghost stories right in middle of maths lect... still can rmb 2005 stj and jts, having to worry about promotion requirements for first time in my life, chionging As in reading room, library, changi airport, tampines burger king, ngeepoo's renovating house and the gelare near his house........
still got much more moments worth remembering, but really too much alr. and 18 years only. seriously when im 50 plus or something i will be so ridden with memories i will die of nostalgia la.
| Thoughts Became Words At 2:09 AM |
TOTALLY SHAGGED NOW....hahahaa.... cos yesterday after i reach home at 12am plus after breaking (with my scalp hurting like a gugu) i eat bathe go online watch breakvids play game until i lost track of time... i was like "wtf its 4am alr"...then summore i need to meet at pasir ris mrt at 0745 for the NE tour thing so in the end i didnt get any sleep at all.
well the NE tour was rather sian. waste half a day of my block leave. but pretty fun gg out with section mates. after the tour we went bedok interchange hawker to chiong makan. our section commander followed us oso la, damn zai. me and daryl chiong until siao la...i ate mutton soup with rice... then ate 4 chee kueh.... then ate kway chap... by then i was rather full and broke so i had to stop...hahaa... then after that a few of us went tampines to shop around... spent a long time gawking at watches...hahaa....i hope daryl will buy my seiko watch from me so that i have money to buy myself contacts... down to my last pair alr...
this 1 week plus is damn valuable to me la. i will definitely have something on for every day....maximum utility..
| Thoughts Became Words At 4:34 PM |
YEAH POP LOOOOOOOOOOO
| Thoughts Became Words At 11:01 PM |
book out!
the week has been super eventful... on monday we did the 16km route march... summore its immediately after the 24 hr bkout after sitest... so damn shagged... summore on top of that i had fever and flu and headache plus bleeding foot plus i was at the last row so had to cover up like siao... continuous running... but i made it..haha... the night 4km was fast but good... i actually enjoyed it..
tues was grenade live throw, ok la...i was one of the last to throw, so just sleep until my turn loh. not as bad as tag described. hahaha. not gan jiong oso, just throw only..sian la didnt blow up the target.... miss by a bit... anw my live shoot got 28... marksman..gay...hahaha....
wed was SOC....seriously it is fucking chaocheekueh tiring... cos we never do full run down until the actual test itself.. so it was damn shagged... fuck la i missed grade A by 6 seconds... knn... shd have chionged the last part....shdnt have jogged... but then again i am now confident of getting grade A for my next one..
thurs was Games Day... ok only la... not that fun... scorpion got champion for tug of war... woot... summore we never lose a single match...just straight win all the way... summore we are black horse la... but seriously mohawk team was damn scary la... even kh was the reserve la... all fucking big sized...
yesterday was 24km.... b4 we even started we were alr fucking shagged... cos got POP rehearsal, then chiong a fast lunch, then chiong field pack inspection, summore get fucked by seageant b4 starting march.. so the first 8 km was seriously fucking tiring... totally diff from other route marches... but after 8km we got momentum alr... seriously to me the next 16 km was rather enjoyable actually...hahaha... especially the 12km night march.... could have done 32 km that night...hahaa... but after finishing the march we sat down @ parade sq... then after standing up again we all realized how much pain we were all in...hahahaa.... i got thigh abrasion and multiple blisters and peeling sole...hahaha.... but lucky dun have groin abrasion.. no need to walk like penguin...muahaha...
yeayyyyy 3 more days to POP... woots.... i am gg to go shine my boots tmr afternoon... it's not needed but i want..hahaha... male ego instinct...
anw ppl next week i will b free from wed onwards... got anything just tell me.... anyone gg back hc to take cert? cant wait to go back la...
| Thoughts Became Words At 4:34 PM |
